55 1/2 down

i've now lost a pound for every year i've been alive. it's a good feeling. my doctor said she'll be happy if i lose another 10. i'll be happy if i lose another 25. nothing like anxiety to kick start a diet.

things seem to be going well with the project that i'm on through september - it's hard to just focus on one day at a time but i know that's the only way. there's so much to learn in this new division of the company but it's making those few remaining brain cells stretch and stretch and stretch so that's good, too.

tilda swinton said in an interview with NPR something along the lines of how she had learned very young that the only thing we can be certain of is change. i think we need to teach that to our children more than we do. i know we want to protect them and for everything to be good but if they learned earlier that not only might things change but that things will change, we'd be helping them a lot more than we are to face reality. of course there are times [like now] when i wish mr. change would get his foot off the accelerator but every time i've doubted god's plan in the past, she's shown me just how much more she DOES know than me. imagine that.

right now, more than work or torn rotator cuffs or anything else, i'm most concerned about two of my best friends who've been diagnosed with cancer. one has already had her surgery and the other will be having her surgery after she finishes radiation. i'm fortunate enough to have a job that i can do from anywhere and so can accompany her on her trips to houston from time to time. but this is her 4th week with only one more to go. they have both been amazing and positive despite the pain. it is so hard to see someone you love go through this. but if anyone can kick the "C" word's ass, these three are among those who can.

so, in the words of dionne warwick, say a little prayer, will you?

over and out